Today is weigh-in day. I would have completely forgotten this if I hadn't gotten a Facebook message on my phone from Lena announcing that she weighed in today and lost 11 FUCKING POUNDS!! My friend > your friend. Lena is a fucking champ. Yeah, yeah you're only supposed to lose 2 pounds per week to lose weight in a healthy way but this is her first week, she didn't starve herself at all, and she's inherently awesome. Plus I lost 6 pounds my first week ever on the program, which, unsurprisingly, never happened again because this is what happens when you shock the fuck out of your body. I typed that last "body" as "boday" on accident and I read it in my head as "bod-ay." It made me laugh so I'm sticking with that spelling today.

Boday: La, la, la la! What a wonderfully, lazy day of carbs and grease!

*week of totally revamping eating habits and changing lifestyle*

Boday: OH GOD! WHAT THE FUCK?! I must rip this gooey fat from myself and discard it in anger and confusion!!!!!

Lena: Look, Brittany! I lost double digits!!

My "morning" was rather different. I woke up and weighed myself in the bathroom. I read "165.4" pounds and thought, "Oh, that's a loss. That's good!" So in my sleepy, yet excited stupor, I zombie walked over to my computer and logged in the weight.

*types in 265.4 pounds*

Me: Yes, that's right. *enter*

So in keeping with true Bruno luck, the day after I wrote my last post, I became violently ill. In fact, I'm still sick almost a week later. *sigh* This is, of course, horrible for someone just starting a diet. I couldn't stock up on healthy food and even if I did I didn't feel even remotely up to cooking. I stayed within my points but it honestly wouldn't have happened if Mical hadn't been so sweet as to bring me food basically everyday. [Thank you, you goofy, WoW-obsessed, EE geek] I didn't venture outside of the house until tonight because I desperately wanted crafting gear (new hot glue gun, wire, etc) to make new ornaments aka deconstructed computer parts for my tree and possibly a christmas wreath.

I've been going absolutely stir crazy and I desperately miss my friends. However, my new character on Ysondre is now level 45...

Hey guys! I'm to my goal weight!! Just kidding. Okay. Here comes the truth...

I stopped.

Stopped tracking points, eating right, working out - the works. The entire summer and almost all of this semester I have not worked out or eaten right. I felt so bad about it that I just continued to do it. How ass backward is that? I was so scared to see how much weight I'd gained back that I didn't weigh in until TODAY.

So after being so bad for so long I felt like I must weigh even more than my starting weight (181 lbs). I also just have been feeling so fat. Like nothing looks good on me. I can't hide the belly. Things like that, you know? However, it turns out I'm 167.6 pounds. I only gained something like 8 lbs. but that's still not good. Those few pounds have obviously done more than affect my weight. I feel like shit - fat, unmotivated, unconfident, unhappy.

With the help of my new, fantastic girl friend, Lena, I'm back on track starting today. She joined Weight Watchers for the first time and I rejoined. I'm excited about the new PointsPlus program. Today is Day 1 of starting over.

So I missed a buuuuuuuuuuuuuuunch of weigh-ins. The month of May has been pretty hectic, what with me graduating and whatnot. A large part of my family came in town and that was... stressful. lol. I also went on a trip to Colorado with Mical (Dad's graduation gift to me) last Monday through Friday. Let me tell you... I ate ANYTHING and EVERYTHING I wanted. Bad, bad Brittany. So let's just say I wasn't really looking forward to weighing in this week. How much did I gain?



...ONLY 2 POUNDS! What the hell? This is where I insert the asterisk *results not typical. I got so lucky. I think I ate better than I think I did, but not by much. Eating so well for 4 months has made me like things I didn't like or didn't like as much before. For example, I didn't even like fish before. First, I made it for myself at home trying out weigh watchers recipes and I liked it. Then later on, I started ordering it at restaurants. I love it now. And we all know how much better fish is for us rather than beef or something. I think substitutes like that, lots of little ones, have started adding up and now even when let loose, I eat much better than I did before. That's not me recommending that you just eat whatever you want 4 months into weight watchers. It's more of an example of how it's a lifestyle change, not a diet.

I recently got into racquetball. Should've started a long time ago. It's so damn fun! Apparently I scream a lot, like a girly girl, for fear of the tiny rubber ball smacking me in the face. I also curse like crazy when I miss the ball - strings of random curse words like "COCK SHIT FUCK!" Anyone want to play with me sometime? I'm sure it'll be entertaining just watching me freak out. =)

I want to work out so bad. How weird is that? I think it's the impending summer. All those skinny bitches running around skantily clad. I don't have all my classwork done and I've been procrastinating as usual. I hate how I do that.

Anyone else still friends with at least one of their exes? Like good friends? I've been struggling to maintain friends with one of mine. I don't really have anyone I can talk to about this so I figured blabbing to the internet would make me feel a little better. I don't really want to go too into it, but he and I basically don't hang out anymore. It's gotten much, much better but no where close to normal or even comfortable. I just really miss being friends with him and it seriously affects my daily life. We have a lot in common, things that I don't have in common with my fantastically awesome boyfriend or other friends. So I don't have anyone to get excited about those things or share those things with me. We've got a lot of dating and just friend history... I just wish we could get back to the friend part sooner. Frankly, I miss him.

So I went shopping at Old Navy last Friday because of that kickass store-wide 30% off sale. I bought 3 skirts (yes SKIRTS - amazing to those who know me!), 1 thin and comfy hoodie, 1 bright yellow cardigan, and a bunch of stuff for Mical. He's been so sweet about my money situation this semester that giving him a mini shopping spree was the least I could do. There will be more surprises like that for him throughout the summer. =) Anyway, in the skirts I bought 2 are size 12 and 1 is a medium!!!!!! I was originally a size 16/XL when I started my weight loss journey. HELL YES! I tried on size 12 pants but they're a bit too snug still. I'm close though, so that's exciting! I would've bought 1 pair of size 12 pants anyway (for future use and incentive) but they all had those nasty horizontal lines on the thighs. Ugh, I hate that. Just makes my already wide hips look wider. Not good, ladies.

I better get back to studying. Once again, let me know if you ever want to work out with me! I'd still love a buddy! =D

Man, I just blow at updating, huh? Sorry guys. The truth is that I've been stressed as hell this last half of the semester. Something had to give and honestly I think I was using my weight loss program as an excuse to slack in my classes. I decided it was best to maintain my weight (stop working out and just eat right) until the semester was over. Did I manage it? Check it out:

Weigh-in:

• Week 4 (3/10/10)- Gained 0.2 lbs.
• Week 5 (3/17/10)- Lost 3.2 lbs.
• Week 6 (3/24/10)- Forgot to weigh in... oops =/
• Week 7 (3/31/10)- Lost 4.2 lbs. but it's really more like I lost 2.1 lbs. each week since I forgot to weigh in during Week 6.
• Week 8 (4/7/10)- Gained 0.2 lbs.
• Week 9 (4/14/10)- Lost 0.2 lbs. 
• Week 10 (4/21/10)- Lost 2.2 lbs.
• Week 11 (4/28/10)- Lost 0.4 lbs.